As a mom, I've realized...

There are many things I said that I would "never" do...Or I judgmentally looked at moms and said to myself, "Oh my gosh, I can't believe you are doing that..."  Well, I've realized, shame on me!  I know now that mom's do whatever it takes for their kid...Regardless of how silly it is...

1. We bought cream that was $20 for Abby...I have NEVER bought cream for myself that is $20, but we spend the money because "the baby needs it."
2. I remember seeing kids with dirty fingernails and thinking, "I will never let my kid leave with nails like that..."  Abby had a bath less than 36 hours ago and had a bunch of gunk under her fingernails when we left the house today...She is only 8 months old, what is going to happen when she is 4 and playing outside?
3. Abby wore her PJ's till about 3pm today.  We weren't at home either...That is just what was easiest.
4. Frequently I find us out and Abby has food on her face...Awesome, she JUST started eating, what does this mean for our future?
5. She has put her fingers in her mouth after being in a grocery cart.  She hasn't sucked on the handle yet, but I am sure that will happen eventually.
6. Only sometimes do I rinse off a pacifier that has fallen on the floor...and that sometimes is pretty rare.
7. I obnoxiously send pictures of my kid to people.
8. I stop at terrible places to take a picture of Abby or comment on how cute she is...Like at the grocery store, on a Saturday, blocking access to the aisle.
9. I now know what it is like to be up all night long..Not the kind like "you can't sleep and you are laying in bed," the all night long like you are in the hospital, or a crying baby is next to you, or the time where you are walking around trying anything and everything to soothe a baby.

In a year, these things are going to seem so silly to me...Because I will have jumped over 100 more mothering hurdles but for now, this is all I've got.

All that to say, sorry for those of you who I judged...I now understand...Do whatever you gotta do for your kid, don't worry about what others think, because someone out there is going to think you are crazy.  That's OK though...As long as you are crazy for your kid, I'm OK with that.

Again, tonight I am reminded again, that none of this really matters...Really, a night up with your kid, you will survive, being stuck behind a crazy mom and loosing 2.5 seconds of your day, you will survive, dirt and food in places where it shouldn't be, not a big deal.  Parents that love their kids is all that matters.  Sorry I am rambling tonight, got a lot of my mind.